tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1156681713639732245.comments2023-05-26T02:13:34.005-07:00ImpactJessica Hirst / Palmer Fishmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01608441336020804994noreply@blogger.comBlogger97125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1156681713639732245.post-13469761995697509612011-07-19T17:10:20.186-07:002011-07-19T17:10:20.186-07:00I know it is simplistic for me to say that bad thi...I know it is simplistic for me to say that bad things happen and that we don't have a way to control them and that the bad things then control us as we give into that, but I said it anyway. Jessica, it was not your fault. I hope you find a good doctor who can tell you that and really help you. It just doesn't seem to me that the medical community is properly diagnosing you or properly helping you. I know I don't know everything, but from what I have read, there just has to be more to this than they are addressing. You are a wonderful person with a TON of talent and a big heart and I am sending you good and positive thoughts right now. I am so sorry for what you have gone through and i pray that there will be not only an answer, but relief for you in the days to come.Evehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16402788606813530631noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1156681713639732245.post-23919724423721045722011-07-17T00:44:28.718-07:002011-07-17T00:44:28.718-07:00Desperation to me means that somewhere in there is...Desperation to me means that somewhere in there is love for you. I confess to having read your latest entries in fear and horror and thinking of you and sending you love and life, you inspire me to keep trying Jessica, you give me this gift.<br /><br />We are around creating a web of safety. You are writing. Your courage is blinding light.<br /><br />You make the world better.<br />XOHillary63https://www.blogger.com/profile/12206667421255061274noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1156681713639732245.post-70696095062853671002011-07-16T07:02:24.556-07:002011-07-16T07:02:24.556-07:00Jessica, this is so heartbreaking, and I'm ver...Jessica, this is so heartbreaking, and I'm very sorry for all you have been through. Like Jenny said, it is not your fault. Rape never is... Sending you all my love and support. We can make it through to the light at the other side! Sending all my love <3Angelahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05748840293468845389noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1156681713639732245.post-5705267204140139232011-07-15T20:17:14.566-07:002011-07-15T20:17:14.566-07:00I am reading Jessica and thinking of you often.
...I am reading Jessica and thinking of you often. <br /><br />The accident was not your fault. It was an accident. It was not your fault. I need to start really working to accept that the rape was not my fault either... maybe we can start together.<br /><br />Love,<br />JennyAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1156681713639732245.post-18911159792319951842011-07-13T09:56:36.569-07:002011-07-13T09:56:36.569-07:00Hi beauty! In case you don't remember, I'm...Hi beauty! In case you don't remember, I'm Desi from metafora;) <br />Jokes apart I hope you are well. How is it now? Does it really feel like a reset? I hope so..I kind of understand this. Many times I have the tough that I would like to electrocute my brain in hope to reset it...I expressed it verbally but had no idea it was actually possible! I'm not planning on going for such procedure, but I wanted you to know that I can understand such a decision;) How do you feel now? Did it helped? Great that O. was there and good he put you in front of your computer...I'm reading you here btw..so please keep writing;) Love from BCN,<br />DesiDesinoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1156681713639732245.post-89096530122121848612011-07-05T17:38:12.797-07:002011-07-05T17:38:12.797-07:00Jesica I am so sorry you have had to go through al...Jesica I am so sorry you have had to go through all that you have had to go through. You have gone through so much... I am reading and listening. As I am reading this I wish I could just sit down next to you in person and listen to you. Here... even if it's in Minnesota on the internet.Heather Jerdeehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17569969882305597077noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1156681713639732245.post-89625667004059314692011-07-05T14:59:46.850-07:002011-07-05T14:59:46.850-07:00Hi Jessica. I am so sorry this happened to you. ...Hi Jessica. I am so sorry this happened to you. It is terrible- I am sure it felt completely terrible. I am so sorry you had to go through all of that.<br />I think it is good you wrote it all out here and I just want you to know that I read everything you post here.<br />I am thinking of you and sending good thoughts your way.<br />I hope you are feeling better and I hope you can keep writing here even when you are not sure what to say. I've found that writing about not knowing what to write about often leads to all kinds of productive stuff. ;)<br />Much love,<br />JennyAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1156681713639732245.post-29407211111760724372011-07-02T23:47:44.344-07:002011-07-02T23:47:44.344-07:00Strangely enough it might be the anxiety that is k...Strangely enough it might be the anxiety that is keeping you afloat right now ... It's a feeling; it's *something* more than the flatness you describe. The absence of the urges to hurt yourself ... That is a gift; it gives you some space. Enough room to breathe in ... room to begin to realize other options. It's terrifying in a way -- just to experience spaciousness -- it can feel like a whole over void ... Give yourself something small and beautiful to put into that space -- I put in music, favourite quotes, purrs from my cats, the sight of a gorgeous summer sky, the scent of a flower. It's always those 'little things' that bring me back to presence and to life. <br /><br />This will pass, Jessica ... :-)Jaliyahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02868006713291780694noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1156681713639732245.post-45731316796863754502011-07-01T09:41:50.949-07:002011-07-01T09:41:50.949-07:00I'm sending love to you across the miles. Numb...I'm sending love to you across the miles. Numbness is no answer. I wish that you can find some feeling again. I believe you will. I hope that you will believe it too. <br /><br />Take care. KelHillary63https://www.blogger.com/profile/12206667421255061274noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1156681713639732245.post-11832435998891299732011-05-26T17:14:57.130-07:002011-05-26T17:14:57.130-07:00Love you, Jess.Love you, Jess.Susannahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11013029410433323970noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1156681713639732245.post-24602915542696078872011-04-17T20:19:45.802-07:002011-04-17T20:19:45.802-07:00Hi Jessica I haven't felt like blogging or ope...Hi Jessica I haven't felt like blogging or opening up much lately. Some days I can make art some days I just can't or do much much of anything. Today was one of those days. <br /><br />These photographs are beautiful. <br /><br />Your feelings of creativity will come back, your art is ready for you when you are ready and I think maybe it's o.k. to have down time and maybe even though we don't see it, we need some silence I don't know... I understand the anxiety though.Heather Jerdeehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17569969882305597077noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1156681713639732245.post-81969844107598080792011-04-15T19:13:04.351-07:002011-04-15T19:13:04.351-07:00I too have felt this way many times. I pray peace...I too have felt this way many times. I pray peace will come to you. Keep going.Evehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16402788606813530631noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1156681713639732245.post-17312154153036587032011-03-15T08:00:48.607-07:002011-03-15T08:00:48.607-07:00This comment has been hidden from the blog.Jessica Hirst / Palmer Fishmanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01608441336020804994noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1156681713639732245.post-45489332745574933462011-03-12T07:31:17.615-08:002011-03-12T07:31:17.615-08:00This comment has been hidden from the blog.Hillary63https://www.blogger.com/profile/12206667421255061274noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1156681713639732245.post-40187044689108086502011-03-03T11:49:50.205-08:002011-03-03T11:49:50.205-08:00Thank you Jaliya - I'm going to keep your '...Thank you Jaliya - I'm going to keep your 'serene core' phrase in mind...Jessica Hirst / Palmer Fishmanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01608441336020804994noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1156681713639732245.post-34605839536750535742011-03-03T09:09:36.392-08:002011-03-03T09:09:36.392-08:00All that is fluid flows around us, through us, to ...All that is fluid flows around us, through us, to and away from us ... There *is* that limpid, serene core of being in all of us, its threshold always open ...<br /><br />Beautiful thoughts ... Thank you xoJaliyahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02868006713291780694noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1156681713639732245.post-83447007946943931322011-03-02T14:51:13.803-08:002011-03-02T14:51:13.803-08:00Thank you for writing this. You are right- the fe...Thank you for writing this. You are right- the feelings will pass. You just have to let them.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1156681713639732245.post-6487545218144974492011-03-02T14:01:47.981-08:002011-03-02T14:01:47.981-08:00this makes me want to be walking by the shore with...this makes me want to be walking by the shore with you. my meditation teacher used to always say to be the ocean so you can realize how small the waves actually are. your wisdom shines through in your poetry. xoxAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1156681713639732245.post-61666177862758708882011-03-02T06:23:59.907-08:002011-03-02T06:23:59.907-08:00Tao Te Ching said of goodness:
"The highest...Tao Te Ching said of goodness: <br /><br />"The highest goodness is like water. Water benefits all things and does not compete. It stays in the lowly places which others despise. Therefore it is near the eternal."<br /><br />You are an ocean. We are all more water than anything else.<br /><br />Your writing is so beautiful and stirring, thank you for this. Take care<br />KelHillary63https://www.blogger.com/profile/12206667421255061274noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1156681713639732245.post-84966157105004181572011-03-01T23:01:36.975-08:002011-03-01T23:01:36.975-08:00beautiful. thank you for making this incredible pl...beautiful. thank you for making this incredible place even more amazing. "that's amazing!" said alice.Jeremyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11976194267213300718noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1156681713639732245.post-11527922523420098452011-02-24T14:32:58.095-08:002011-02-24T14:32:58.095-08:00Dread attack, fits way better. Hope you are having...Dread attack, fits way better. Hope you are having some sparkling moments.Hillary63https://www.blogger.com/profile/12206667421255061274noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1156681713639732245.post-83694746101904515452011-02-04T13:07:57.308-08:002011-02-04T13:07:57.308-08:00Thanks Jessica, it's always reassuring to hear...Thanks Jessica, it's always reassuring to hear you. Please take care.Hillary63https://www.blogger.com/profile/12206667421255061274noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1156681713639732245.post-80656663396705506722011-01-30T10:06:58.339-08:002011-01-30T10:06:58.339-08:00GREAT NEWS!!!!
And nice choice too! You certainly...GREAT NEWS!!!!<br /><br />And nice choice too! You certainly help me.<br />Take careHillary63https://www.blogger.com/profile/12206667421255061274noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1156681713639732245.post-86383127846400717772011-01-17T19:05:20.183-08:002011-01-17T19:05:20.183-08:00Thank you! I'm sorry you know the feeling, bu...Thank you! I'm sorry you know the feeling, but glad that I captured it in a recognizable form.Jessica Hirst / Palmer Fishmanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01608441336020804994noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1156681713639732245.post-66268484989946957942011-01-17T17:56:18.931-08:002011-01-17T17:56:18.931-08:00I can relate to feeling like this so much. I watc...I can relate to feeling like this so much. I watched your video Nevertheless a couple times I think it's incredible.Heather Jerdeehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17569969882305597077noreply@blogger.com